Nothing can beat a man than his own thoughts

It has been a long time since I wrote something here.

The reasons are unknown.

Sometimes, I try to ensure everything around me is organized and that there is no deficiency in my lifestyle. I purchase everything I need to make life easier.

The irony is that even after setting things right on the outside, there is still chaos within.

At times, I do things that go against my principles, and it makes me feel weak.

This cycle of highs and lows takes a toll on me.

this weirdo is here

I believe in myself. I know this is a challenging phase, but I love challenges—at least, that’s what I tell myself. I remind myself to embrace them and be grateful. The Almighty knows everything.

I have strange habits sometimes, like suddenly ordering food late at night or sleeping excessively. Sometimes, I indulge in unnecessary shopping, while at other times, I feel indifferent to everything.

Despite everything, I occasionally find myself revisiting old memories, triggering my past neural patterns, getting caught in a whirlwind of emotions, feeling miserable—only to snap out of it suddenly.

There are days when I talk endlessly on calls, and then there are times when I avoid picking up calls from my family.

Anyway, I’ve noticed a few readers from different parts of the world—thank you for being here.

If you read my story and wish to talk, please comment on this post, and I will respond.

Totally sleepy, tired and exhausted | 27th June 2024

Hello friends, 

Hope you're doing amazing!! 

Yesterday I saw a post about mutton on Instagram and it prompted me to cook for myself, even though knowing just after a bit of it I don't feel good eating still I thought to buy it from the store and cooked it. 

I have seen one thing that sometimes If I do something odd, I feel like doing more odds that day untill I feel a critical point and then come out of it. 

I need to understand this behavior. 

I'm being more aware of it because, I didn't feel good eating non veg because I regret eating non veg these days and also 95% of my life energies are utilized in breaking down those complex food particle and hence I feel tired and slept all day long. 

I'm planning to be more conscious and avoid eating these food which involves killing of innocent creatures. 

I couldn't complete the basic blocks of my life today and yet again a disconnect. 

I'll improve and trying to eliminate things that lowers down the potential of elevating above these odd things. 

Journaling completed. ✅

Leet code ✅

Rest all the things are incomplete. 

Namo Buddhay! 

Vivek Sunny. 

Happy Yoga Day | Mobile blog 1 | 21st June 2024 | 11:09 PM

Hello everyone, 

Hope you're doing amazing!! 

I overate today post doing Yoga and hence I wanted to share and inteospect but I lost all the energy to use my Mac 🍎💻 and hence thought to draft my progress today so that in the next vlog I'll carry forward it. 

Exercise Done. ✅

Water Done. ✅

EP Done.✅

becoming supernatural is done. (summary will publish tomorrow with today's one). ✅

Protein powder done. ✅

The most crucial part to consider is the food choice. ❌⛔⚠️⁉️❎

I feel as if my gut bacteria requests me to go for a full plate Non veg mean outside and hence my health and money both gets compromised.

I think, it might happen the next time as well but need to be aware that it takes a lot of energy to digest and hence it feels fatigue sometimes. 

Mood, health and money all goes in vain. 

Next time, I'll be extra mindful. 

Today I can rate that food choice was again improper because of the food outside. 

Namo Buddhay! 

Vivek

Forgot the bottle where? | Food mindfulness and Gut health importance | Workout at Cult | Water challenge incomplete today | 09th June 2024 | 9:42 PM

Hello Everyone,

Hope you're doing well!

Today I woke up and missed breakfast, but I directly consumed food at a society member's home. Then I rested, and in the evening, I went to Cult for a new activity. However, I noticed that my infuser bottle was missing. I asked the Cult managers and caretakers about it, and they suggested I search their cupboard, but I couldn't find it. Then I called the restaurant, and I'm super happy that because of journaling, I could track my activity and it helped me find the right person.

Yesterday's meal self prepared

When I went to the restaurant, I found the bottle and was very happy. I ate chicken masala, two wheat rotis, and half a plate of rice. I need to be more mindful about food portions. Next time, whenever I feel hungry after a workout, I will drink water first and then eat two rotis with egg or egg bhurji, along with some healthy coconut water, and then sleep. Otherwise, the calories will overshoot.

I have not completed most of my tasks like protein powder, hydration, and the EP course, but I will take my protein powder and ensure I consume enough water. I will drink 2 liters at any cost. However writing post publishing the article that I couldnot consume 2 litres of water and just took around half litres of water including protein powder and half litre of milk

That's all for today, guys. I shall meet you tomorrow.

This challenge is already completed, and I'm super proud.

Journaling challenge L0: 21/21 days completed ✅  

For now, let me summarize my achievements:

- Hydration challenge: 16/21 days Not completed.

- Journaling challenge L1: 2/21 days completed.

- New fitness challenge: 14/21 days completed.

- Protein powder challenge: 8/21 days completed.

- EP Course: 4/47 lessons completed.

Areas for improvement:

- Food choices

Namo Buddhay!

Best regards,

Vivek

Finally plot in Dentistry appointment | 27th May 2024 | 10:37 PM

Twist in Dentistry Appointment

 27th May 2024 | 10:37 PM

Hello people,

Hope you're doing amazing today!

I know many of us perceive Monday as an anxiety-inducing day, but it's just a small portion of life. Instead of worrying, we can thoroughly enjoy the day by doing our work and gifting ourselves or our loved ones the best things we wish for.

Today, I got up at 5:30 am, took a bath, consumed soaked chia seeds and two bananas, then packed all my yoga gear and drove to the center. It was another Evolve yoga session. After the session, I had the same Poha and tea for breakfast.

I had a dentist appointment today. The doctor identified a few things that needed to be done. However, due to some issues with my corporate balance, I had to leave after just the initial consultation.

On my way home, I had egg curry and two rotis for lunch because I was insanely hungry and couldn't wait to eat at home. I regretted it for a minute but then consoled myself.

I also went to Gold's Gym to inquire about a coach because only doing yoga and dance won't build muscles; I need to do some strength and gym exercises as well.

I came back, started working for the office, and after finishing work, I packed my gym backpack and left for Cult to participate in the Dance Fitness class. The class was very intensive today, and all the spots were booked. The energy was insane, and I put all my energy into dancing and shouting or screaming.

The day went pretty well with my dentist appointment, healthy food, and exercise.

Night dinner outside but a fulfilled one.

Let's hope that each day gets better as time goes on.

I am very excited to tell you that I have completed my 11th day of journaling today.

I have changed the subject of my blogs as I have read about the concepts of headings, titles, and permalinks for better SEO.

Here's a summary of my day:

Talking about some regular routine checklist:

- Hydration challenge: 5/21 days completed.

- Journaling challenge: 11/21 days completed.

- New fitness challenge: 4/21 days completed.

Namo Buddhay!

Best,  

Vivek

24th May 2024 | 9:17 PM

Hello, my loveliest peeps,

I am journaling early today because I have good news to share. However, you'll need to read through to the end for the reveal.

Today, my day started at 11 am IST. I prepared buns and butter for breakfast, read a few pages of my book, and reflected on how household chores and office work are keeping me from going out. This has taken a toll on both my physical and mental health. It's often said that unbalanced chakras or energy blockages can cause such issues.

Around 3-4 pm, I decided to cook something. I soaked dal and rice, added soya chunks, and put everything in a cooker for 7-8 whistles. Meanwhile, I mashed potatoes with tomato and garlic for a chokha recipe, fried some papad, and served the khichdi with dahi and achar.

The good news is that I completed both the hydration challenge and the journaling challenge. Additionally, I started a fitness class today and attended the Evolve yoga session. It was great to get back to it after a long time, and I feel good.

My Friday was busy: I talked with family, took a walk around the society, and planned to sleep by 10 pm so I can wake up at 5 am for an outdoor cycling exercise tomorrow.

From now on, I will note three things at the end of every blog:

- Hydration challenge: 2/21 days completed.

- Journaling challenge: 8/21 days completed.

- New fitness challenge: 1/21 days completed.

These little steps are really helpful and contribute to a better lifestyle.

That's it for today's blog. Love to see you in the next one.

Best,

Vivek

Outbursting thoughts | Part-1

It is 2:44 AM. My body is lying on the bed inside a locked room in a 33-story high-rise building, and I'm with my soul and skin intact, trying to figure out what my little brain is thinking.

It's a thought or a line of thinking described in Don't Believe Everything You Think by Joseph Nguyen, or perhaps it's the 1st or 2nd system defined by Daniel Kahneman in his book Thinking, Fast and Slow. I'm not entirely sure, but at this moment, I could have slept. Instead, my little brain is racing at high speed.

You might wonder what all this nonsense is, but yes, it does happen. It showers a warm wave of heat onto my heated skin, bringing me to misery.

Is it a problem with my brain, or is there some energy surrounding me, or maybe inside me, that induces these thoughts? Is it this energy that calls my brain to think, crave, and dig up the buried soul?

The soul, which I buried in some unidentified area within me, gets unearthed by my brain, prompted by an invisible source of energy.

The thoughts are purely illogical because it's a buried past, and I know it. I know thinking about it is entirely wrong. However, I ask a second entity in my soul or brain, "Only for today, then I won't think." I feel as if my brain, soul, or some energy feels relieved, but it starts tormenting me again, reminding me of losses, miseries, guilt, and sacrifices.

Considering these activities, I sometimes feel like living with these energies and slowly, gently extracting the necessary essence, mixing it with mine, and channeling the energy towards a purpose. Even if the soul is unearthed, I bury it again with a smile, crafting a more robust form of my soul.

21st May 2024 | 11:25 PM

Hello, my lovely readers,

I am grateful today for my life, the work that I do, the food, clothes, and shelter I am blessed with, and for being surrounded by people who are genuine and think well of me.

Today, I started the day by having lunch out and didn’t cook anything due to laziness. I couldn't get productive today. I did some office work and then went out and had two plates of panipuri and a glass of sugarcane juice. Although I know these aren't great for my gut, I am trying to be more mindful as the day progresses.

The book "Thinking, Fast and Slow" is really captivating. I am currently understanding the cognitive illusions created by our mind's first system. There are many topics I have covered, and they resonate with me. Now, I understand the 'why' behind my actions.

After completing this post, I will read a few more pages of that book and then go to sleep.

I know there isn't much interesting to share, but keep an eye on my blog. I am taking on the challenge of practicing this blog for the first 21 days.

This is my tangible goal, and I want to grow by reflecting on my journey here.

Thank you so much for your support.

Much love,

Vivek

20th May 2024 | 11.02 PM

Hello everyone,

Today, I listened to a very insightful line that I wanted to share: It was from coach Tannaz Irani about setting your frequency to a higher level in conjunction with the highest divine power. It was a seriously good session on NLP. I came to understand another powerful statement: “You will never meet the same person twice,” and also how people are incapable of being emotionally present, which creates tensions.

She also discussed ‘Analysis Paralysis.’ These were all things I did in the evening after 8 pm.

However, today I woke up late, around 9:30 am, and instead of having breakfast, I started with tea. I began checking emails and solving mock papers for the Snowflake certification. As work progressed, I took time to cook rice and baingan-bhindi-aloo ki sabji.

I had a session booked with Urban Company for a pedicure, neck and face de-tan, and neck, head, and shoulder massage therapy. After which, I took a bath and cleaned the room. However, due to the workshop, I couldn’t cook food and had to order from Zomato, where I ordered egg curry and rice. I know that for people like me, I can reduce rice intake and focus more on protein and exercise.

I couldn’t read ‘Thinking, Fast and Slow’ today, but after this blog, I’ll go read it, make some notes, and also sleep.

Thanks for reading this far.

Let’s meet tomorrow.

Much love, Vivek

20th May 2024 | 01:01 AM

Today, I woke up really late. The reason was that I went to bed very late last night because I was talking with friends on a video call. Today was Sunday, and I spent my time cooking rice and aloo soyabean for lunch. I also ate three rotis and mustard potol sabji because I like Bengali food.

I am currently reading "Thinking, Fast and Slow" by Daniel Kahneman, and it is really a good book. Today, I didn't go outside, and I can summarize my day as cooking, cleaning utensils, bathing, and reading books.

I need to wake up early tomorrow to perform some morning rituals, exercise, and prepare food before work starts.

Goodbye.

Vivek

19th May 2024 | 2:30 AM

Hello to whoever has reached this blog,

My name is Vivek, and I know a few things about data engineering, which is how I earn my living. When I was a child, I wanted to become a pilot, but during my early schooling days in 6th or 7th grade, I used to hack my father's computer and play games in safe mode with my brother.

Although I was never a pro game player and my brother had the patience and skill to crack the missions, I always stood by his side to encourage him. I was more interested in planning things and planned to pursuing a career as a software developer in the future.

Today, I am renting a 1 BHK flat, living solo, and fulfilling my dreams by God's grace. I cook food myself, clean the utensils, mop the floor, arrange my clothes, and wash them. I have not employed anyone for household and cooking jobs because my work-from-home setting allows me to learn and practice the art of self-management.

Staying alone can be difficult at times when social connections are limited, but I don't feel like I'm missing out. I am more interested in spending time with myself and understanding the core principles of why I am here on this earth. What drives me to my purpose of living?

I laugh my heart out—sometimes fake, but mostly genuine—and often play the role of a 'baba.' I reflect on each day, assessing whether it was useful or wasted. If I consider it wasted, I make an effort to correct it the next day.

I have resumed writing and now just want to continue so that I can feel lighter, happier, and share some of my views and life experiences here.

Thanks with much love,

Vivek

15th May 2024 | 12:36 AM

Hello everyone,

This morning, I woke up intending to go to the gym, but I couldn't move my body and fell asleep again. I woke up directly at 9:30 am IST and got myself freshened up.

I went to the kitchen and had two packets of Yipee noodles and two packets of Maggi, and then I brushed my teeth. It's a bit annoying to admit, but that's how my morning went.

I started working for the office and then began cooking chhole and paneer. In the afternoon, I had paneer and chhole, which I kept consuming until the evening.

In the evening, I took a break, had a bath, and went to the gym. I spent 45 minutes exercising: treadmill, some stretching, and lifting dumbbells.

I came back to my room, listened to some meditation songs, and took a 10-minute nap. Then I took another bath, put on a new T-shirt and jeans, and went to have tea with my friend. We spent an hour talking, and then I went to his flat, where I started discussing how an ideal vacation can be enjoyed on a solo trip.

Later, another flatmate and I went for tea at night and talked a lot about various things in life. When I came back, I cleaned my T-shirt, which had gotten stained when tea spilled on it.

After that, I wrote a poem, and now I am looking forward to sleeping.

Bye,

Vivek