It has been a long time since I wrote something here.
The reasons are unknown.
Sometimes, I try to ensure everything around me is organized and that there is no deficiency in my lifestyle. I purchase everything I need to make life easier.
The irony is that even after setting things right on the outside, there is still chaos within.
At times, I do things that go against my principles, and it makes me feel weak.
This cycle of highs and lows takes a toll on me.
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I believe in myself. I know this is a challenging phase, but I love challenges—at least, that’s what I tell myself. I remind myself to embrace them and be grateful. The Almighty knows everything.
I have strange habits sometimes, like suddenly ordering food late at night or sleeping excessively. Sometimes, I indulge in unnecessary shopping, while at other times, I feel indifferent to everything.
Despite everything, I occasionally find myself revisiting old memories, triggering my past neural patterns, getting caught in a whirlwind of emotions, feeling miserable—only to snap out of it suddenly.
There are days when I talk endlessly on calls, and then there are times when I avoid picking up calls from my family.
Anyway, I’ve noticed a few readers from different parts of the world—thank you for being here.
If you read my story and wish to talk, please comment on this post, and I will respond.
