Inking My Life on Paper

 Day 14 I am having major setbacks in life. Although I can't go personal but sometimes I see that there's a lot inside. V is really far from his TS. He sometimes enjoys his core but then all of a sudden he realizes that during the past times he had no distinct boundaries with core and hence his TS never came into picture.  He wants to replenish his core but then he realizes he will forget his TS. Without TS there is no existence for VS.

Ever wondered why do we work so hard? What is 1 purpoe that drives you to wake in the morning get up and start doing office work? The 10+ hours you put everyday of your life? Is that you wanted or just doing it for no reason? Being a purpose is important, the one purpose that defines you, that ignites you, the dream you had shaped when you were a child. Life is not a punishment, its a gift, knowing the purpose will help you get up early and help you pamper yourself. have you ever thought why do you want to stay healthy or fit? because you have strong dreams and passion in your eyes. you want to live for that passion and dream. it can be anything but 1 purpose is required. That would require a strong mindset , youll have to face hurdles on the way, youll fall down, you'll face rejections, people will walk away, sometimes youll vibrate in a different energy zone and sometimes said that you'll be the star who will shine irrespective of what others are doing. The energy for t...

I hardly speak, I accumulate, I walk out leaving my mind, soul and spirit say it as my Core. I explore things which are against the will of my Core and say this state as a “Diverted core”. There is a core my truest nature, then a Diversified core 1 which slightly moves from the core and does things to make sure the human say V enjoys a state of freedom with his folks and his core is maintained. His DC1 and core walks hand in hand. Although core is what makes him. Core defines him. Core builds him.  Core gives him a purpose. The V doesn’t want his core to know everything about DC1 and not at all wants to talk about core to anyone. The core slightly pushes the IC(Inner core family) to make him feel independent. He also slides Core so that he can enjoy with his DC1. He shares his happiness with DC1 and source of his happiness is Core. Slowly he identifies that Core which defines his truly self has some issues because at one time he finds that his true self is fatigued and he wants to ...

Nothing much to explain. It's difficult today. I'll try again, this time with a different strategy.

This year seem to me a bit challenging. I said it one day that "I love challenges" It means I'm evolving in this year mentally, physically and emotionally. This year is bringing joy, happiness and enrichment in my life. I would never let my close people feel down and I'll fight till the end.

 No idea where it is taking me to. I am doing what makes me neutral. It’s an opposing force, but I’m okay with it. Regards, Vivek

I am still figuring my right picture. I'm surprised by how much intense I get sometimes, related to work, sleep, thoughts etc. This is just the 5th day of month (New year) but seems like a bit difficult but I trust myself that I'll fight, I'll find some meaning if not sooner then someday for sure. -Vivek

I'm improving. I'm healthy. I'm mindful.

Whenever the problems arise, I enclose myself in a cocoon. No matter it is a sunrise or a sunset. No matter how tougher it gets. No matter who listens to me. No matter who stays. Sustaining on a human-crisis, slogging for the day,eating whatever the heart desires, shopping anything in the budget, fighting for the validation, Understanding the basics. Talking less over phones, searching for the human to convey something hidden, unfortunately the message doesn't come out. It's not that I didn't start telling things but there wasn't a solution in their words. Louder is the agony, silent is the exterior, in a venom of thoughts, it searches for a waterfall, a place to wander by, enough to survive and roam. That's how life has helped me evolve.  I have lost the taste in writing because I have changed. I'm returning to basics. The environment has changed but I still feel myself in one corner of my dark existence.

 Today is my second post in this year 2025. I didn't promise this year to do things  wise fully.  The core reason is that I have understood that I work in waves. Sometimes I am on a top rise wave sometimes very neutral and then I am very low.  As I am growing up , I have walked through a pavement in order to find the external validations, so that I would get a sense of love and respect from people, Same moment I realise that who is going to judge me?  The world where I stay in and the world where I work is so vacant. The flower that was growing in the garden wished for water to thrive, The heart and the important organs needed water and food, The home, The kitchen and the hall - everyone wanted me, The major stakeholder who was me - He was under a guilt trip that he is left without any living elements in his horizon, He made his world dark although knowing the consequences can get so troublesome. People adorn themselves with all love and affection , While I was ...

 Today, I am grateful, I am happy and I look good. Hi, I am Vivek Sunny, Today is the 1st day of the year 2025, I am so happy to share that I have been gifted with this life, where the god has given me everything what I dreamt of during my childhood. I was always a curious, doubtful and sincere child. However, I had been bullied by classmates and sometimes my teacher would not like the nature because I used to ask questions. Sometimes my questions used to be wrong instead of the right one, but eventually I could learn it. I had a passion of learning and making intellectual friends. I was blessed to have intellectual friends along my way. I am 28+ now. I am working in one of the biggest firm and I am so much proud of myself. I love how I have travelled so far. I love how I see myself growing.  I also believe that one day I will fulfil my dreams, I would always love to make my parents feel proud of themselves. I appreciate their dedications and sacrifice. I would like to journal...