Day 9 | I hardly speak

I hardly speak, I accumulate, I walk out leaving my mind, soul and spirit say it as my Core.

I explore things which are against the will of my Core and say this state as a “Diverted core”.

There is a core my truest nature, then a Diversified core 1 which slightly moves from the core and does things to make sure the human say V enjoys a state of freedom with his folks and his core is maintained.

His DC1 and core walks hand in hand.

Although core is what makes him.

Core defines him.

Core builds him. 

Core gives him a purpose.

The V doesn’t want his core to know everything about DC1 and not at all wants to talk about core to anyone.

The core slightly pushes the IC(Inner core family) to make him feel independent.

He also slides Core so that he can enjoy with his DC1.

He shares his happiness with DC1 and source of his happiness is Core.

Slowly he identifies that Core which defines his truly self has some issues because at one time he finds that his true self is fatigued and he wants to solve this issue by meeting with DC1 so that he gets better and then come back to core. 

However core and DC1 doesn’t perform better in unison and truest self equivalent to core separates apart. 

The V sees his truest self unworthy, the confidence, the look, the money, the fame, the smile degrades.

V is empty without truest self without his core.

Core separates out, Core gets a promotion, core improves in the life, core gets a shine. 

V sees his truest self vacant. He withdraws himself from DC1, IC.

The V takes a shape of untruest self (V forgots his truest self, he ignores the DC1, IC) he misses his truest self adorned with core , he never get a chance to connect with core. It feels empty and walk towards UTS (untruest self).

Negative as hell, full of degradation. 

His truest self on a point when it was syncing with Core had a maximum of 10 values has been downgraded to -10 during untruest self. He withdrew from Truest self(TS),DC1,IC and becomes UTS. 

One fine day V wanted to cry for life so he thought to fill his truest self with Core but he faced rejection. He struggled to improve his truest self without core by adding values so that it can reach 10 with his accomplishments and good routine and he reached 10.

Truest self with self improved truest self (TSWI) and core came into picture.

TSWI and Core was a deadly combination.

V had TSWI and Core.

What else will he need ?

He soon realised his dark UTS when core got their TS in life and it made him an UTS.

He felt miserable and cried.

The core changed. 

The TS again felt Core is not understanding his V.

TS felt he has no DC1 and IC.

TS was scared of UTS.

TS felt he could maintain TSWI and meanwhile he wanted to make sure CORE gets permanently embedded but core had different priorities.

TS was scared, frightened, unsure and he never wanted to see his UTS. 

He still wants to meet his TS and walks by to check if core is there. 

Core went to a different planet leaving the V to UTS and he is hanging in -10 and he dreams to become his TSWI.