A reflection of inside

Sometimes I ask myself - Why do I get sad sometimes?

I think about the vibrations , my vibrations in the past.

I think about the vibrations, a low ones, probably due to a difficult day which lowers the confidence.

I think about my vibrations, a terrible one in the past and which I never want to feel it.

I think about all the outer things which should be perfect and if that's not the case then I find myself low.

The lower energies are because -

I fail.

I lose.

I fail to accept the changing things around.