Difficult emotions today

A house inside my soul experiences storm inside and it conveys me - Hey, I need help. Please fix me.

To the reply, I never figure it out myself and give a resolution plan to it. I say hey- There's nothing I can do, It's a choice that I make myself a victim of the adverse situation.

The life gets so overwhelming, I feel a deep sense of loss, Loss of my version, Loss of my truest self.

A cloud of overthinking fills me up. I feel heavy and void. I feel horrible.

I feel the sense of fear.

There's a lot I can do but I choose to stay in this situation.

I feel despair, But I say - Hey, Let's walk, Proceed, Breathe.

Let's just live.

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