Life never follows a linear path

 Life never follows a linear path or inclination, it struggles to navigate through potholes. 

Essentially, We create subjects in this objective world. Isn't?

An object say XYZ can be either perceived as a gold or just an object without helping a man to move from one place to other like a motorbike.

For me, It is always to grow, I can ignore the party scenes, an important movie to watch, or a social gathering for fun.

Because I have created stories in my mind about the career. It is definitely important but sadly it is less important that thinking about the self who creates the illusion of objective reality to a strict subjective career goal.

What would the society speak about this actor, Who is not keeping the trend of highly luxurious lifestyle?

A latent fear has developed inside the actor's brain, This fear is about elimination of his respect in the society, in the image of actor's parents and close associates.

The actor feels so much pressure inside, working day and night to get closer to the goal, losing the track of his own existence. 

One fine night, struggling to cope up with the stress he built over months and years, He tries to uncover the past dimensions of his life, Why?

He wanted to feel vulnerable. He wanted to feel that someone hears to his crisis, Someone who can instill belief in himself, the primary thing is to stay. 

A human doesn't need anything else. He can bring stars, land on the moon, build an empire and fight with enemies inside.

The tired actor was in deep grief over the issues. The planet was quite deserted, The past dimensions were absent, The trees, flowers, rivers, mountains, birds all were occupied, He couldn't talk with any of them. 

He enclosed himself in a room, grieving the loss of dimensions, struggling to establish his potential, feared the situation of social defamation and surrounded by the uncertainty of the future prospects.

A deep scar inside the heart, The subjects developed in the mind were purely unhygienic.

There was still a small ray of light somewhere, It gave a hope. It maintained the system of his lifecycle. 

It was the determination.

Nothing can beat a man than his own thoughts

It has been a long time since I wrote something here.

The reasons are unknown.

Sometimes, I try to ensure everything around me is organized and that there is no deficiency in my lifestyle. I purchase everything I need to make life easier.

The irony is that even after setting things right on the outside, there is still chaos within.

At times, I do things that go against my principles, and it makes me feel weak.

This cycle of highs and lows takes a toll on me.

this weirdo is here

I believe in myself. I know this is a challenging phase, but I love challenges—at least, that’s what I tell myself. I remind myself to embrace them and be grateful. The Almighty knows everything.

I have strange habits sometimes, like suddenly ordering food late at night or sleeping excessively. Sometimes, I indulge in unnecessary shopping, while at other times, I feel indifferent to everything.

Despite everything, I occasionally find myself revisiting old memories, triggering my past neural patterns, getting caught in a whirlwind of emotions, feeling miserable—only to snap out of it suddenly.

There are days when I talk endlessly on calls, and then there are times when I avoid picking up calls from my family.

Anyway, I’ve noticed a few readers from different parts of the world—thank you for being here.

If you read my story and wish to talk, please comment on this post, and I will respond.

I broke down

Yes, my readers.

I am grateful to you that you spare sometime to read my life blogs.

Since nothing is hidden from you and I wanted to share you that..

I broke down, recently.

Any object in this universe comes with an expiry date.

So was my emotions.

I broke down so badly and I isolated myself.

I brought books closer to me and started identifying my patterns in the lines of the book.

I smiled, cried and expressed all emotions while reading it.

I introspected.

I found a better right path which probably my friend circle wouldn't have taught me.

Then I realised sometimes we live so fastly that we never stop to realise who we are and what are we doing?

I am grateful and I am working towards my goal.

No matter how difficult it might get but I'll promise that I'll never stop doubting my true intentions.